My Degree

Showed it to a few people, and the same response has been "huh, lidat only ah?" haha. Guess the notion of a Uni education has been rather inflated. I do not think its that much of a deal, though I am really thankful and grateful for the opportunity. I believe one should not take his education for granted, neither should he take himself too seriously. In all cases, all glory goes to God who saw me through my formative years.

Mistakes

Im really not meticulous at all. I hate to check my work. When it involves huge amounts of quantitative data, something is bound to go wrong. Today it did.

Was supposed to extract a bunch of figures and make some calculations. This is more or less the kind of stuff I do daily cause computers arent that smart, yet. So yeah I did it and it was a real pain. Since i didnt enjoy it, I tried to get it over and done with asap and tried to do it in the most "efficient" way. In the end I left out some figures and it distorted the information and it was sent out. That was Monday.

So today got a few queries on the numbers cause it didnt match. Did abit of checking and realised that I messed up. Worse of all, the list sent to all the managers, piangs haha. Oh well, lesson learnt. But I still don't like checking haha.

Tomorrow I'll get my cert, after 3.5 years in SMU. Should be interesting to see it after all this while. Got a telecon in 5 mins zzz.

My Redeeming Lamb

I stand before you Lord
In awesome wonder
Holy is the Lamb, who reigns

In quiet solitude
There you're with me
You are my Shepherd King, who reigns

I see Your mercy fall down on me Lord
I long to love You, with all that I am
I hear Your praises
It reaches to the heavens, to You
My Redeeming Lamb

I Wish To

Know and love God more, be able to talk to Him like the Fathers did

Obey God when faced with a tempting choice

Appreciate Scripture's form and content better

Teach to change lives

Connect with the boys in my cells

See my CMs drop their entanglements and break free

See RAGE transform from a consumer to a serving culture

Somehow help Collin, Yang, Raymond and many others know Christ's love

See what God is doing and be a part of it

Lay my dreams, plans & ambitions down and take hold of what God has for me

Find a girlfriend (Next year only; interested applicants may submit your resumes. While all applications will be thoughtfully considered, I regret to inform you that only shortlisted candidates will be notified. HAHA, joke ah! from reading too many Saturday classifieds)

See the auroras before i die

So these are some of the things on my heart i'd like to get out. Its somewhat frustrating, but in a good way. The yearnings and the knowledge that God works through a process and it'll take time and effort. The beauty of it all is that eternal life is now.

The Guys

So we finally got the guys together for our inaugural guys ministry meeting. The posse included Joesph, David Goh, Chris, Corn, Kenneth, Justin, Joel and I. Its been a long time in the making and truly last night was a great experience.

We went to West Coast Park to the little outcrop in front of the yacht club and found a corner to just crash. Since I had a spare disposable bbq pit, we brought along some food and marshmallows and had a mini roast. Was a nice tight affair gathered round the smokeless fire, just bonding and sharing.

It was a time of casting the vision - that the guys in RAGE would rise up to be godly men, starting with the bunch of us. Thereafter we just spent time seeking God for His direction, guidance and wisdom and we prayed and worshiped as the Spirit led. Truly this level of fellowship among guys is unprecedented in all my years and it was a moment to savor.

Initially i was apprehensive that we would have too much time on our hands and that we'd just not click and be able to connect. I couldnt have been more wrong. Even on the way to West Coast in the van, the guys were already into it and it even gave Joel a good vibe about the night. Through the night as we ate and shared, the overarching thing that surfaced was that how most of them had longed for this sort for avenue for the guys to really connect, support and grow together. It was encouraging to know that God had primed our hearts to be ready for this.

So we've committed to having this group over the next 1 year, meeting on a monthly basis (much more frequent than i anticipated ahaha in a good way tho!) with the aim of being most vulnerable to one another and to intentionally love and connect with the younger guys within our circle of influence. So theres much to look forward to and we covet your prayers that though the course of our journey together that God will use us jars of clay for His glory and to the edification and strengthening of our ministry.

Life In General

Just got back from a supper after GLI with the group. It was a nice way to spend vday, though im not really a sentimental person. It just felt like any other day with a slight tinge of novelty. We were at Holland Coffee Club and the whole Village was CROWDED. I thank God that I feel incredibly secure and whole in my singleness, as I've struggled with the desire for companionship on and off for awhile and like the who's to like feeling. But was reminded on Sunday when Ps Lim went through the Sermon on the Mount, that really all these things, we dont have to worry about. Very basic, but sometimes things seem too big and insurmountable.

Work has been really taxing. I know everyone comments how slack I seem, but its really cause I choose not to show a "shack-face" haha. Its great to knock off early, not having to stay back to show that you're working. But when im at work its really intense, given the tight reporting deadlines and that I'm still trying to grasp the nitty gritty of the job. Theres really so much to learn and remember.Well at least im being stretched. Think a coule of nights ago i was so stressed that i couldnt sleep that night cause of all the adrenaline and stress in my body. It spilled over till the next day and I was a zombie by 4. So its difficult at times, yet I have a great experience at work and im really blessed with everything around me.

Today during GLI Ps Lim taught about spiritual gifts and how all of us actually have access to the gifts through the Holy Spirit. Most significantly, was the concept of incarnation - in which God works through US! So the exercising of the gifts is both a supernatural and natural process in which who we are and what we are going through influences the message that God speaks through us. I was greatly encouraged during the practical part when Ps Lim encourage us to share the impressions we got from God and how everything fits together as god reveals differently to different people. Its something really powerful to be sensitive to God and to exercise these gifts for the edification and encouragement of the body of Christ. I hope to be able to practice it in my life, in church as well as in the workplace, to really "see" what God is doing and how i can be a vessel to share the love of God. Also learnt the gifts aren't really for the super spiritual alone but for anyone who is willing and its something I believe we can encourage our young people to yearn for and RAGE will definitely be strengthened and dynamic as we flow in the anointing and power of the Holy Spirit.

So thats life generally and its been a struggle daily, with fatigue and my spiritual life. Need to learn to cut down on extraneous and unnecessary activity, to simplify and to set time aside for whats really important - being in the presence fo God daily. Want to grow i my sensitivity and intimacy in the months to come and to somehow help my CMs and boys do so too.

Roadtrip Pics: Ipoh & Cameron

East To West

Road Tripping

So Im waiting for some work to get done then its off to Orchid Hotel to catch the bus to KL. Gonna rent a car in KL tmr morning and head up to Ipoh and Cameron Highlands then back down to KLIA for an Airasia flight home.

An exciting experience to be driving up in Malaysia. I do hope to come back in one piece. Realised I left the house without a CF card. Bummer. Think i'll pick up a disposable later after dinner.